It has been almost 4 weeks since my surgery. I still have pain. The pain is less, thank God. At first I felt like I was being stabbed every time I got up or sat down. I’m thankful I don’t feel that any more. But I do still feel discouraging pain near and above my belly button. I hope it’s normal and okay. I hope it will go away. Soon.

I know there are worse things in life than what I have been going through, and there are people going through worse things. I pray for strength and relief for anyone going through pain. I’m so sorry for complaining. I hope God will forgive me. I hope that anyone reading this who has been through worse will forgive me.

I feel very fatigued, physically and emotionally. I feel like I have reached the end of myself. Not the end of my life, but more like the edge of myself. There’s nothing left of me, nothing more to me. Like I am empty of myself. Maybe that’s not a bad thing. Maybe God can use an empty vessel.



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  1. I know someone with terminal cancer and during the time that she was in treatment the one thing I came to the conclusion of was that despite the fact that she was in pain at times it didn’t negate the fact that other people are suffering with their ailments and their own degree of pain. we’ve all got our own pain threshold.
    and everybody’s in their own place. There’s no need to apologize for a lil complaining. God says he wipes all our tears so obviously some complaining is involved.

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