It has been almost 4 weeks since my surgery. I still have pain. The pain is less, thank God. At first I felt like I was being stabbed every time I got up or sat down. I’m thankful I don’t feel that any more. But I do still feel discouraging pain near and above my belly button. I hope it’s normal and okay. I hope it will go away. Soon.
I know there are worse things in life than what I have been going through, and there are people going through worse things. I pray for strength and relief for anyone going through pain. I’m so sorry for complaining. I hope God will forgive me. I hope that anyone reading this who has been through worse will forgive me.
I feel very fatigued, physically and emotionally. I feel like I have reached the end of myself. Not the end of my life, but more like the edge of myself. There’s nothing left of me, nothing more to me. Like I am empty of myself. Maybe that’s not a bad thing. Maybe God can use an empty vessel.